Why am I not getting married?

In past few month the frequency of this question in my life has increased.....everywhere people just want to know that ...I am scared to go for parties cause i am very sure that after few drinks this question has to come and i am very sure that , though i know the reason ,i will not be able to explain them.

Its not that I care for every tom, dick and harry who want to know the answer ,for them i just tell something irrelevant and will not bother but there are people who are mine ,who matters to me more then me like my parents, sister, brother and important friends.But still I have doubt that i can make them understand the reason.

I have met plenty of people to whom , when you ask why are you married ? the answer that i get does not make sense to me at all like just because my parent forced me,just because my girlfriend was insisting , or say i don't know exactly why and also since i am doing good in life i got married.

I don't want to give those answer, i want to get marry when I really feel like getting married,there should not be any other reason apart from "I want to get married that's why i am getting married". Marriage should not be forced ...it should be felt.

Here i am not saying that my marriage will be perfect and there will be no adjustment and believe me i am ready to go to any extent to make sure my marriage work and i am ready for each and every adjustment that i need to do from my side but marrige itself a adjustment does not make sense to me.

Am i scared of getting married ,believe me I am. I strongly believe that when we are born and when you are given your dads name there is this unsaid agreement that your dad is going to take care of all your needs through out your life no matter what happens and try and make sure your life is perfect (If we ourself not mess it up) and similarly when a lady walks in to your life and takes your name it no longer remains a formality or rituals but it becomes your duty to take care and ensure that the life is perfect for that person or else let her not have your name don't marry.

And i think I am not that ready ,I think i can be better then where I am , i dont want my wife to come in to my life and work to ensure the money is sufficient ,that should be my responsibilty (May be male ego) but again I am not saying she should not work let her work what she feel like doing, let her do that makes her happy then it can be being school teacher or social worker or a CEO of a company rather then slog herself in some software company or bpo to ensure money is sufficient to run home .She should be free of the thought of running home That should be my department and I will prefer it that way.......

And for that i think i require some more time ...I know people i am not on right side of age but I am not asking for another 10 years may be a year or year and half I want to give my best shot and then also if something does not happen then Ill go back and do whatever you people say but at least tomorrow I will not regret that didn't try.

I am sure that the first things that comes to your mind is what were you doing all this years and what is the guarantee that after 1 years you will be something , but i never said that there is gurantee but atleast i will not regret that i didnt try , i didnt gave my best shot.

I am not against marriage and I am not running away from marriage just want some time..........

Hope you will understand.........

Ajeeb Baichaini Hai

Kuch dino se badi ajeeb si baichaini hai.

Promotion hai lekin khushi nahin hai, Thoda aur paisa hai lekin khushi nahin hai.
Pata nahin hai kya hai bus accha nahin hai, Dimaag ki ekdum lagi hui hai.Bhaag jaane ko jee karta hai per kahaan kiss se pata nahin .

Bahut confuse sound kar raha hoon lekin hoon yaar , Bilkul samajh nahin aa raha kya karna hai ,ghar jaane ki iccha kar rahi hai lekin yeh nahin pata ki kya karoonga .Khabhie kabhie lagata hai ki sab kuch chod kar waapus chala jaoon.

Lekin aisi galti ek baar kar chuka aur bahut pachtaya hoon bahut band baji hai zindagi ki , bhagana nahin hai ab lekin jawab bhi to nahin mil raha hai

14 Sep 2007


Khabhie khabhie yuhi sochta hoon ache the who din jab shayad kuch nahin ho kar bhi khush the,choti choti batooon meain bhi khushi milti thi phir who kahin se ek rupay milne ki hoti ya phir saath milkar copy karne ki ya phir apne dost ki nayi cycle aane per ,itne khush hote the jaise khud ki cycle aayi hai .

Aur aaj, bahut kuch hai lekin khushi nahin hai , sab haste hai to hum bhi has lete hai per, per kahin mujhe pata hai ki yeh hasi khokli hai main khush nahin hoon ,shayad isliye kyoonki meri khud se umeede bahut ho gayi hai,sapne dekhne lag gaya hoon jo itne bade hai ki log has pade lekin mujhe who chaiye aur nahin milenge to dukh hoga , aur us kal ke na milne ke dar se main aaj khush nahin hoon ya phir yeh kahe ki khush nahin ho pata hoon.


Lekin kya yeh sahi hai, per isme galat kya hai ,meri mane to sapne zaroori hai ,sapne na ho to insaan kiske peeche bhagega ,aisa lagega ke railgaadi hai jiske pass station hi nahin hai , lekin bahut jyada dar bhi hai who sapne nahin milnege to kay karoonga main to toot jaoonga ,roj darta hoon aur roj khud ko samjhata hoon ki sapne mein insaan wohi dekta hai jo usey pata hai ki woh kar sakta hai….lekin phir bhi mere sapne had se bahar hai ….aap hi sochiye ek cycle ki dukaan per kaam karne wala ka kya sapna hota hai ki ek din ek garage ka maalik banega ya phir ek chai ki dukaan per kaam karne waale bache ka sapna hota hai ki ekdin uski bhi chai ki dukaan hogi lekin jab ek middle classs background wala billgates ya dhirubhai banne ki sochta hai to phir gadbad hai …lekin mere sapne hai to hai .


Har baar ki tarah phir do hin option hai ya to yeh sapne sapne hin reh jaye ya phir mein har who cheez karoon jo main in sapno ko pane ke liye kar sakta hoon ……kal yaani ki 10 20 saal baad peeche mud kar dekhoon to yeh shikayat nahin rahe ki I ddint gave my best shot………aur pata hai mujhe ki zid per aa jaaoon to khuda dhoond loonga to yeh sirf ek sapna hai….main isey kyoon nahin pa sakta .


Haar kar baithne waale dekhe hai kai,
Thak kar ruk jaane waale dekhe hai kai,
Per who birle hi hote hai jo,rakhte hai taakat
her toofan ko modne ki,
Har mushkil se ladne ki,
Aur shayad unhe hi log vijeta kehte hai.








26 dec 2007..4.30 pm






Ajeeb hai zindagi..abi do ghante pehle take ek dum akela that koi nahin tha aas pass aur ab ghar ekdum se bhar gaya…..khabie lagta hai ki tanhaai se dosti ho gayi hai mein akela reh loonga aur phir achanak poora ghar bhar jata hai …..aur jab sab chale jaate hai tp phir shuruwat se shuru karma padta hai…..ek dum us gaon ke chote railway station ki tarah jahaan railgaadi ke aane ke baaad ek toofan sa aa jata hai aur uske jaane ke baad ek dum veeran sannata.
Khair kal Christmas tha,aur shaam ke 6 baje tak yeh nahin pata tha ki kay kara hai,koi nahin tha,vishwa se subah hi mila tha ,srirag se bhi mil liya tha,chetan kerala mein that,rags bhi nahin tha,yeh nahin pata tha ki is baar kya karoonga ,baar baar pichlee baar ka Christmas yaad aa raha tha jo cindy ke ghar per banaya tha……is baar lag raha tha ki chupchap ghar per baithna padega …..aur kambakht paise bhi nahin the…..phir achanak ….i am at archie place ….i am almost 15 km away from my place….had nice drink ,nice food….and above al was not alone …….had some one to talk …laugh….sirf do the per Christmas accha ho gaya ….phir ek yaad chod gaya ..jo mere saath rahegi….abhi naye saal ka kuch plan nahin hai …kuch socha bhi nahin hai lekin mujhe pata acchanak se kuch accha ho jaayega abhi to char din khoob mehnat se kaam karna hai tabhie to party ka majaa ayega ……

Ek dum confusing si hai zindagi….aaj subah se kuch khaya nahin that chaar biscuit pade huye the khaa kar paani pee liya tha aur bhook ko maar liya tha….isliye nahin ki kuch tha nahin per aalas bhi koi cheez hai ,socha ki aise hi so jata hoon shaam ko office mein kha loonga ….lekin phir waisa hi hua jaisa hamesha hota hai yeh dono (chetana aur ds)khana lekar aagaye .

Hamesh dekha hai kam se kam apne maamle mein ki jis din jis cheez ki bilkul umeed nahin ho , aisa lagega ki aaj to who cheez ho hi nahin sakti us din pucca who cheez milegi , phir who chahe khana ho daaru ho us bichde dost ka call ho ya phir koi purana dost ho .pucca hota hai……..

Apne case mein planning karo ko hamesha gadbad ho jaati hai, pata nahin kya chahati hai zindagi ,bahut bada question mark hai jiska answer near future mein to dikhta nahin hai …aur sach kahoon to mein koshis bhi nahinkarta…jab tak chal raha hai chalne do.

Abhi to kuch doosre sawaaloon ka jawaab chaiye jo mujhe bahut jaldi jaldi dhoondna padega , jaise ki zindagi kahaan ja rahi hai,aaj se 5 saal baad mein kahaan rahoonga aise kuch sawaloon ke jawab chaiye fatafat……aur bahut koshish kar raha hoon nahin ho rah hai ,kuch dikh hi nahin raha hai , badebade sapne hai per sapne dekhne bhar se to who sach nahin ho jaate ……unko pane ke liye kuch karma bhi padta hai…..par kuch ho nahin pa raha hai….gaadi bus atak jaati hai….
Abhi taaja taaja resolution kiya hai weight ko , jo abhi 82 hai ko 65 laane ka feb29 tak…..koshish bhi jaari hai …..dekho umeed poori hai koshis bhi jaari hai…..dekho…yeh paa liya to aage bhi karne ka confidence aa jaayega….

Khud se ladkar haar gaya hoon,
Khud se roothne manane ke silsile se thak gaya hoon,
Ab zid hai zindagi se ladne ki,
Aur jitney ki,
Zindagi aa rha hoon mein…

Is baar nahin

Lyricist Prasoon Joshi sent us this poem that he wrote after the Mumbai terror attacks .

Is baar nahin

Is baar jab woh choti si bachchi mere paas apni kharonch le kar aayegi
Main usey phoo phoo kar nahin behlaoonga
Panapney doonga uski tees ko
Is baar nahin

Is baar jab main chehron par dard likha dekhoonga
Nahin gaoonga geet peeda bhula dene wale
Dard ko risney doonga,utarney doonga andar gehrey
Is baar nahin

Is baar main na marham lagaoonga
Na hi uthaoonga rui ke phahey
Aur na hi kahoonga ki tum aankein band karlo,gardan udhar kar lo main dawa lagata hoon
Dekhney doonga sabko hum sabko khuley nangey ghaav
Is baar nahin

Is baar jab uljhaney dekhoonga,chatpatahat dekhoonga
Nahin daudoonga uljhee door lapetney
Uljhaney doonga jab tak ulajh sake
Is baar nahin

Is baar karm ka hawala de kar nahin uthaoonga auzaar
Nahin karoonga phir se ek nayee shuruaat
Nahin banoonga misaal ek karmyogi ki
Nahin aaney doonga zindagi ko aasani se patri par
Utarney doonga usey keechad main,tedhey medhey raston pe
Nahin sookhney doonga deewaron par laga khoon
Halka nahin padney doonga uska rang
Is baar nahin banney doonga usey itna laachaar
Ki paan ki peek aur khoon ka fark hi khatm ho jaye
Is baar nahin

Is baar ghawon ko dekhna hai
Gaur se
Thoda lambe wakt tak
Kuch faisley
Aur uskey baad hausley
Kahin toh shuruat karni hi hogi
Is baar yahi tay kiya hai

... Prasoon Joshi

Don't Quit

Don't Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won if he'd stuck it out.
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are -
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

I Promise

I promise you my heart♥

♥I promise you my life♥

♥I promise we'll never be apart♥

♥I promise not to hurt you♥

♥I promise to never make you cry♥

♥I promise to always trust you♥

♥I promise not to lie♥

♥I promise you forever♥

♥I promise you tonight♥

♥I promise you my respect♥

♥I promise to do things right♥

♥I promise to always be there♥

♥I promise until the end♥

♥I promise to always love you♥

♥I promise to be your best friend♥

♥I promise you my love♥

♥I promise you my life♥

♥I promise this forever♥

♥I promise our friendship is my life♥

♥your the PEANUT to my BUTTER ,♥

♥your the STAR to my BURST,♥

♥your the T to my T,♥

♥your the POP to my TART,♥

♥your the MILKY to my WAY,♥

♥your the FRUIT to my LOOP,♥

♥your the MILK to my DUDS,♥

♥your the LUCKY to my CHARMS,♥

♥your the ICE to my CREAM,♥

Touching life story.....

Touching life story.....
A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.
As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box.
Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart.
He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL.
How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?i believe if it happen it was for good

THE BRICK

The Brick!!! Read It.
Read this today and don't delete it if you are too busy!! You'll see.
THE BRICK


A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down


when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver


then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against


a parked car shouting, "What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?" The young boy was apologetic. "Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," He pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..." With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. "It's my brother, "he said "He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up."


Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me."


Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay. "Thank you and may God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger. Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy! push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.


It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message: "Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!" God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not.


Thought for the Day:


If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.


If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it.


He sends you flowers every spring.


He sends you a sunrise every morning Face it, friend - He is crazy about you!


Send this to every "beautiful person" you wish to bless.


God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.


Read this line very slowly and let it sink in...


If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

FD special

Humaare saath,
kal shayad prakash sir good job nahin bolenge,shayad ragz mamu nahin bolega,
na premsir ke serious waale joke honge,aur na vinod sales release karega,Yeh bhi hoga ki ,Shaista ki awaaz nahin aayegi,
na pradeep phir koi record todega,
aur na nanda ko koi fuga kumar bolega,
kal yeh bhi nahin hoga ki kaithwas chillayega aur koi shaanth karayega,
koi anees nahin peeyunga karke waapus peeyega,
kal pamel crib nahin karegi na login ke liye aur na off ke liye,
kar harini 10 baar loo nahin jaayegi,
kal shayaad madiwala shift nahin hogi,
kavita medo sidejack nahin karenge ,koi headset se nahin khelega(abhi),quality ki maa behan nahin hogi..
aur na v and a waale charged ko clear karne ko bolenge...
aur na apna chinky kishen khaniya (dany) rass leela karega...
ya phir yeh kahen ki yeh sab hoga per saath nahin hoga ,
sab honge per saath nahin honge,
but the silver line is ki jab bhi udass honge yeh pal hamesha honge to make u feel happy,khbhie dukhi bhi karenge but they will remain best memories
And to end jus wanna thank each one of you from bottom of my heart for being there and on dil chata hai note
"hum dost the,dost hai aur hamesha rahenge...

ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING

ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING
Jerry was the kind of guy you love to hate. He was always in a good mood and always had something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"
He was a unique manager because he had several waiters who had followed him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"
Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, Jerry, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood.' I choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life.""Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested."Yes it is," Jerry said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live life."
I reflected on what Jerry said. Soon thereafter, I left the restaurant industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.Several years later, I heard that Jerry did something you are never supposed to do in a restaurant business: he left the back door open one morning and was held up at gunpoint by three armed robbers.While trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him. Luckily, Jerry was found relatively quickly and rushed to the local trauma center. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body.
I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Wanna see my scars?"I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place."The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door," Jerry replied. "Then, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live, or I could choose to die. I chose to live.""Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked.
Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the emergency room and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read, 'He's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action.""What did you do?" I asked."Well, there was a big, burly nurse shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes,' I replied. The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!' Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully.

As you might know.....

As you might know, the head of a company survived 9/11 because his son started kindergarten.
Another fellow was alive because it was His turn to bring donuts.
One woman was late because her Alarm clock didn't go off in time.
One was late because of being stuck on the NJ TurnpikeBecause of an auto accident.
One of themMissed his bus.
One spilled food on her clothes and had to take Time to change.
One'sCar wouldn't start.
One went back to Answer the telephone .
One had a child that dawdled And didn't get ready as soon as he should have.
One couldn'tGet a taxi.
The one that struck me was the man Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning, Took the various means to get to workBut before he got there, he developed a blister on his foot.He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid. That is why he is alive today.
Now when I am Stuck in traffic ,Miss an elevator, Turn back to answer a ringing telephone ... All the little things that annoy me. I think to myself,This is exactly where God wants me to be at this very moment ...
Next time your morning seems to be Going wrong,
The children are slow getting dressed, You can't seem to find the car keys,You hit every traffic light, Don't get mad or frustrated;God is at work watching over you.
May God continue to bless you With all those annoying little things And may you remember their possible purpose.
Pass this on to someone else, if you'd like...
There is NO LUCK attached.If you delete this, it's okay:God's Love Is Not Dependent On E-Mail !! AM EN

Akela

aane waale kal se dil sehma hai,
shayad main tanhai se darta hoon...


chah kar bhi ro nahin paa raha hoon ,
Bus mard hone ki saza paa raha hoon,
kehna hai tum ho zaroori ,
per bus kuch nahin keh paa raha hoon,
aanewaale....



bahut waqt nahin gujra hai ghar laut ke mujhko,
per lagta hai ki sadiyo se yehi mera basera hai,
per haqeeqat yehi hai ki kal tum nahin hoge,
aage kuch kehne se ghabra raha hoon..

aaanewaale .....


::12-03-2007:Wrote when parents were leaving for hometown

Deewaaron se milkar rona achha lagata hain

Deewaaron se milkar rona achha lagata hain
Hum bhi paagal ho jaayenge aisa lagat hain
Deewaaron se...

Duniya bhar ki yaade hamase milane aati hain
Shaam dhale is sune ghar mein mela lagata hain
Hum bhi paagal ho jaayenge aisa lagat hain
Deewaaron se...

Kitane dino ke pyaase honge yaaro socho to
Shabanam ka katara bhi jinko daraya lagata hain
Hum bhi paagal ho jaayenge aisa lagat hain
Deewaaron se...

Kisko kaisar pathhar maaro kaun paraya hain
Shish mehal mein ik ik chehara apana lagata hain
Hum bhi paagal ho jaayenge aisa lagat hain
Diwaaron se milkar rona achha lagata hain
Hum bhi paagal ho jaayenge aisa lagat hain
Deewaaron se...

Apne hoton per sajana chahta hu

Apne hoton per sajana chahta hu,
Ab tujhe main gun-guna na chahta hu,

Apne aasu tere daman per gira kar,
Bund ko moti banana chahta hoon,

Thak gaya main karte-karte yaad tujhko,
Ab tujhe main yaad aana chahta hu.

Cha raha saari basti me andhera,
Roshni se ghar jalana chahta hu.

Aakhri hichki tere naam pe aye,
Maut bhi main shayarana chahta hu.

Shaher ki is daud me daud ke karna kya hai?........

Shaher ki is daud me daud ke karna kya hai?
Jab yehi jeena hai dosto to phir marna kya hai?

Paheli barish me train late hone ki fikr hai
Bhul gaye bhigte hue tahelna kya hai?

Serails ke kirdaaro ka saara haal hai malum
par maa ka haal puchhne ki fursat kise hai?

Ab ret pe nage pao tahelte kyu nahi?
108 hai chanel phir dil bahelte kyu nahi?

Internet ki duniya ke to touch me hai,
lekin pados me kon raheta hai jaante tak nahi.

Mobile, Landline sab ki bharmaar hai,
Lekin jigri dost tak pahuche aise taar kaha hai?

Kab dubte hue suraj ko dekha tha yaad hai?
Kab jaana tha shaam ka woh banana kya hai?

To Dosto Shaher ki es daud me daud ke karna kya hai
Jab yahi jeena hai to phir Marna kya hai?

Siine mein jalan aaNkhon mein tuufaan saa kyuuN hai

siine mein jalan aaNkhon mein tuufaan saa kyuuN hai
is sheher mein har shaKs pareshaan saa kyuuN है

dil hai to dhaDakane kaa bahaanaa koI DhuunDhe
patthar kii tarah behis-o-bejaan saa kyuuN है


tanahaaI kii ye kaun sii manzil hai rafiiqon
taa-hadd-e-nazar ek bayaabaan saa kyuuN है

kyaa koI naI baat nazar aatii hai ham mein
aaInaa hamen dekh ke hairaan saa kyuuN है

Ranjish Hi सही................

Ranjish hi sahi dil hi dukhane ke liye aa
Aa fir se mujhe chhod ke jaane ke liye aa

Pahle se marasim naa sahi fir bhi kabhi to
Rasmo rahe duniya hi nibhane ke liye आ

Kis kis ko batayenge judai ka sabab hum
Tu mujhse khafa hai to zamane ke liye आ

Kuch to mere pindar-e-mohabbat ka bharam rakh
Tu bhi to kabhi mujhko manane ke liye आ

Ik umr se hoon lazzat-e-giriya se bhi mehroom
Aye raahat-e-jaan mujhko rulane ke liye aa

Main Nashe Mein हूँ.........

Thukraao Ya Ab Ke Pyaar Karo Main Nashe Mein Hoon
Jo Chaaho Mere Yaar Karo Main Nashe Mein Hoon

Ab Bhi Dila Rahan Hoon Yakin-e-wafa Magar
Mera Na Etabaar Karo Main Nashe Mein Hoon

Girne Do Tum Mujhe Mera Savar Sambhaal Lo
Itna To Mere Yaar Karo Main Nashe Mein Hoon

Mujhko Kadam Kadam Pe Bhatakane Do Aaeezo
Tum Apna Karo-baar Karo Main Nashe Mein Hoon

Fir Bekhudi Mein Hadh Se Guzarane Laga Hoon
Itna Na Mujh Se Pyar Karo Main Nashe Mein Hoon

तेरे बारे में जाब सोचा नहीं था

तेरे बारे में जब सोचा नहीं था,मैं तनहा था मगर इतना नहीं था
तेरी तस्वीर से करता था बातें,
मेरे कमरे में आईना नहीं था।

समंदर ने मुझे प्यासा ही रखा,
मैं जब सहेरा में था प्यासा नहीं था।

मनाने रूठने के खेल में हम,
बिछड़ जायेंगे ये सोचा नहीं था।

सुना है बंद कर ली आंखें उसने,
कई रातों से वो सोया नहीं था.

वह लड़की बहुत याद आती है........

कुछ छे साल से देखा नहीं है उसे ,पर कमबख्त उसकी याद अभी भी उतनी ही ताज़ा है,
कभी कभी तो लगत है की बस अभी पास से गुजरी है...और कभी लगता है की अभी उसकी खुशबू आई है
क्यूं कैसे कब के सवालो के फेर में नहीं पड़ना चाहता पर याद बहुत आती है,
उससे पहले कभी प्यार नहीं किया था , या फिर यह कहें की उससे पहले कभी वैसा महसूस नहीं किया था
और न उसके बाद तोह शायद प्यार ही होगा ,वो हमेशा खुश रहना सबसे हंस कर मिलना ,चेहरे पर हमेशा एक मुस्कान का रहना , भीड़ में भी तनहा रहना ......वो पक्का प्यार था
और उसके ज़िंदगी से जाने के बाद फिर उतना अच्छा कोई लगा ही नहीं ,दोस्त कई बन गए पर वो प्यार फिर नहीं हुआ
और कोई ख़ास कोशिश भी नहीं करी क्योंकि ऐसा लगा ही नहीं की वो नहीं है ,जैसे मैंने पहले बोला वो अभी भी लगता है की आस पास है तोह किसी और की क्या ज़रूरत

न हैं यह पाना , न खोना ही है
तेरा न होना जाने, क्यों होना ही है .

सब कहते है पागल है तू और मैं कहता हूँ मैंने कब कहा नहीं हूँ सही तोह है पागल ही तोह हूँ ,जो ६ साल बाद भी उम्मीद है ,कायेदे से उसे ६ साल से देखना तोह दूर कोई रिश्ता ही नहीं है न तार न बेतार न मेल न जीमेल परहै तोह बस उम्मीद सही है पागल ही हूँ मैं

Sochon to wo saath chal raha hai......

sochon to wo saath chal raha hai.......dekhon to nazar badal raha hai
क्यूं baat zuban sekeh कह khoi....dill aaj bhi haath mal raha hai
ratoon के safar main weham sa tha...ye main hoon के chand chal raha hai
hum bhi tere bad jee rahe hain...or tu भी kahin behal raha hai
samjha के abhi gai hain दोस्त ....or dill hai के phir machal raha hai
hum hi bure ho gay ..के tera......miyare wafa badal rahai hai
pehli si wo roshni nahin ab
के dard ka chand dhal raha hai

khote na hon jo hosh unhe ghar bulaa ke pee

khote na hon jo hosh unhe ghar bulaa ke pee
yaa phir buton ko saamne, apne biTha ke pee
behad naa pee, naa bol bahut, josh mein naa aa
ruk ruk ke pee, sukoon se pee, sar jhukaa ke pee

daulat hai faqat chaar dinon ki pee le
izzat hai faqat chaar dinon ki pee le
hai waqt shab-o-roz tabaahi ki taraf
mohlat hai faqat chaar dinon ki pee le

chalo pee lein ke yaar aaye naa aaye
ye mausam baar baar, aaye naa aaye

gulaabon ki tarah tum taazaa rahnaa
zamaane mein bahaar aaye naa aaye

ye sochaa hai ki usko bhool jaayen
ab is dil ko qaraar aaye naa aaye

"zameer" is zindagi se kyun Khafaa ho
ise phir tumpe pyaar aaye na aaye

I wanna go home......

Another summer day
has come and gone away
In Paris or Rome...
but I wanna go home
...uhm Home
may be surrounded by
a million people I
still feel all alone
just wanna go home
I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters
that I wrote to you,
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you?
I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane, another sunny place,
I'm lucky I know
but I wanna go home
I got to go home

Let me go home

I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home


And I feel just like I'm living
someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
when everything was going right


And I know just why you could not come along with me
This was not your dream
but you always believed in me...

Another winter day
Has come and gone away
in either Paris or Rome
and I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
still feel alone
Let me go home
I miss you , you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
baby I'm done
I gotta go home

Let me go home
it'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home"

माँ

ऑंखें बिछाए बैठी है वो , रोज रहा तकती है मेरी
जाने किस वादे पर आस लगाये बैठी है मेरे ,

आँचल की चादर , पल्लू का सहारा , प्यार की डांट और आंखों की नमी ,
सब कुछ तोह लूटा चुकी है मुझपे ,
बस मुझे मांगती है माँ मेरी,

हर पल सताया है मैंने उसे ,
फिर भी खुशी मांगती है मेरी ,
शतरंज के खेल में हर बार जान बूझ करव हारी है मुझसे,
और कहती है तू है जीत मेरी ,

उसे छोड़ पूरी दुनिया को दोस्त बनाया है मैंने ,
फिर भी मुझ अकेले को कहती है तू है दुनिया मेरी ,
एक मुद्दत से देखा नहीं है मैंने उसे ,
पर वह रोज निहारती है तस्वीर मेरी ,

उसके पास होने के एहसास से भाग जाती है बिमारी मेरी,
पर अपनी बिमारी छुपाती है माँ मेरी ,

आज भी याद आती है तोह दिलमें कसक और आंखों में नमी छोड़ जाती है मेरी ,
वैसे तोह कुछ नहीं कहती है ,
पर मुझे पता है रातो को छुपकर रोती है माँ मेरी


I was really missing my MOM that Day

अच्छा लगता है

घंटो बारिश में रहना अच्छा लगता है,
रेल के स्टेशन पर बस युंह ही घंटो बैठे रहना अच्छा लगता है ,
सुबह सुबह खुली सड़क पर गाड़ी चलाना अच्छा लगता है ,
कुछ न सोच कर भी ख्यालों में खोये रहना अच्छा लगता है ,
किसी के बारे सोच कर बस यूहीं मुस्कुराना अच्छा लगता है ,
दोस्तों के साथ ज़ोर से खिलखिलाना अच्छा लगता है
छत पर रात को अकेले घंटो बिता देना अच्छा लगता है ,
हारे हुए लम्हों से अब तक के सफर को सोच कर आंखें नम कर लेना अच्छा लगता है ,
यूं तोह सब कुछ है थोड़ा और पाने की इच्छा करना अच्छा लगता है ,
किसी और की खुशी में खुश होना अच्छा लगता है ,
कभी तोह बस चुप बैठे रहना ही अच्छा लगता है ,
किसी बच्चे को मुस्कुराता हुआ देखना अच्छा लगत है ,
अनजानी भीड़ में किसी अपने का पुकारना अच्छा लगता है ,
किसी बिच्दे हुए का अचानक से फ़ोन आना और फिर उससे देर रात तक बात करना अच्छा लगता है ,
सुबह जल्दी उठने पर बसयूँही पड़े रहना अच्छा लगता है ,
किसी सुंदर अनजान से अचानक ही आँखें टकरा जाना और पलका थम जाना अच्छा लगता है ,

Aaj Chod Di Maine....

Well no one believed it and no one should either ,but aaj sharaab chod di maine
kyoon pata nahin ,ya shaayd pata hai may be...yes ..no
Lets see ,i think i am bored of drinking ya yeh kahe ki thak gay hoon , bambaiya language mein kahe to kantaal aa gaya hai.

Shuruwaat wahin se hui jahaan se lagbhag sab karte hain ,saat saal pehle dosto ke saath ,jab apne pitaji ko peete huye dekhta tha to khud se kehta tha ki khabhie nahin peeyong akhair,pehle yaaroon ke liye peeta tha ,phir masti ke liye, phir dekhawe ke liye, phir neend ke liye, per ab to saare reason bekaar ho gaye hain
zindagi ke Jis mod per main hoon waha masti nahin hoti ,dost kai saare hai jinki dosti mere peene na peene per depend nahin hoti ,aur ab to peene ke baad bhi neend nahin aati to koi reason nahin mil raha peene ka ....aur kehte hai na ki jis cheez ki zaroorat nahin hoti usey zindagi se nikal dena chaiye.

kitne din ke liye chodi hai pata nahin,koi wada nahin hai koi zid nahin hai ,bus chod di hai .jab chaloo kari thi to koi reason nahin tha kisi ne kaha nahin tha to ab chodi hai to bhi kisi ne kaha nahin hai ,kyoonki kisi ki baat maan kar chodna hota to shaayad bahut pehle chod deta , lekin kareeb kareeb 9 - 9.5 saal akele rehne ke baad kisi ka order lene ka man nahin hota per kehte hai na "never say never"

kya yeh aasaan hoga sach kahoon to bilkul pata nahin , par aasaan to chalna bhi nahin tha jab do saal ke the aur ab dekho maloom hi nahin padta chal rahe hai,per bahut zyada mushkil bhi nahin hogi kyoonki khabhie peene ki aadat nahin thi aisa nahin that ki nahin peeyonga to kahin dard hoga, aisa nhin hai ,per dikkat zaroor hogi khabhie lalak jaagegi ,khabhie man bhi karega per phir main bhi as my dad says "ziddi aulaad" hoon ,haroonga nahin.
bahut log kahenge nahin kar paayega aur zaahir si baat hai jis tarah se unhone mujhe dekha hai uske baad to koi bhi vishwaas nahin karega...
per un sabse sirf yehi kehna chahta hoon ki
"Tu waaqif nahin meri deewaangi se"
"Agar zid pe aaoon to khuda dhoond loonga"

Thoda jyada bol gaya per ab bol diya hai kar loonga

koshish hai , nahin karta to hamesha ek kasak reh jaati ki koshish karta to shayad kuch ho jata
is shayad mein nahin jeena chahta main...isliye dekho kahan tak jaata hoon ....per waada hai khud se bahut door jaoonga....

chao